Insomnia

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I never sleep well when Neil is away. Usually I will lay in bed with the television on until sleep overcomes me. I can usually be asleep by 1 or 2. But this week has been different. I lay in bed and my mind races. So I am back at the computer, typing trivial stuff and playing computer games. My throat is sore and I suspect I'm getting sick. Don't have time for that. And yet, if I'm not going to sleep, I ought to have time to clean my house and do laundry.

It's now almost 4 am. I am feeling tired, but now the dilemna is what are the chances of actually getting decent sleep before I have to get up to take the boys to school?

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